Yes, Of Course It’s ALL About Me.

People often ask me what I write about.

Artificial intelligence? Travel?  Philosophy?  Language?  Neurodivergence?  Ageing?  Humanity?  Science?  Culture?

The honest answer?

All of those things.

And none of them.

The subjects may appear to constantly change, but my fascination never does.

For as long as I can remember, I have been captivated by one question above all others: what does it mean to be human?

Not just biologically or historically, but experientially. 

How do we think? Why do we perceive the world so differently? How does language shape our understanding? What invisible structures connect seemingly unrelated ideas? What exists around us that we simply haven’t yet developed the tools, or perhaps the vocabulary, to perceive?

Those questions have fascinated and followed me my entire life.

Long before I travelled.

Long before artificial intelligence.

Long before I knew words like intertwingularity or sonder.

I think it’s important to clarify that travel didn’t create my humanity curiosity.

It helped to actualize and fulfilled it.

I never wanted to collect passport stamps or simply say I had “been somewhere.” I wanted to stand where history unfolded. I wanted to hear languages I couldn’t yet understand, experience the many cultures that I had deeply researched about, and witness humanity and decipher societal narratives with my own eyes instead of solely through someone else’s interpretation or teachings.

I’ve never truly trusted accountabilities from knowledge that is not complimented with experience.

That is why my writing moves so freely between biology, anthropology, archaeology, language, psychology, philosophy, travel and technology. To me they have never existed as boxed in, separated disciplines. They are different windows looking out onto the same extraordinary mystery.

That’s probably also why I have never felt like I comfortably fit inside neat little boxes.

I don’t naturally think in categories.

I naturally think in relationships.

One idea flows to another. A conversation about dolphins becomes a reflection on communication. Communication becomes language. Language becomes artificial intelligence. Artificial intelligence becomes interpretation. Interpretation becomes philosophy. Philosophy inevitably circles back to humanity.

To me, none of that is a distraction. It is how my mind explores. It quite excites me to feel a natural deep dive coming on.

For much of my life I wondered whether there was something unusual about the way I thought. Today, I know that it is my way of seeing and interpreting this amazing world.

Over the years, I’ve also come to notice that we confuse a great many things in our culture. 

  • We mistake self-observation for self-absorption. 
  • We mistake introspection for narcissism. 
  • We mistake confidence for arrogance. 
  • We mistake curiosity for eccentricity. 

They are not the same thing.

Maybe that is why writing about myself has occasionally been misunderstood by some. I’m not writing because I believe I am the most fascinating person on Earth (however, I have had some pretty extraordinary experiences). I’m writing because I am literally the only consciousness (to date, who knows what is to come in the future!) that I will ever experience completely from the inside. 

Your life is just as rich. 

It is just as complex. 

And definitely just as worthy of exploration. 

But there’s only one problem, I simply don’t have direct access to it.

I can observe humanity through history, science, culture, travel and thousands of conversations, but my deepest and longest-running field study has always been the one life I inhabit every single day. If my understanding one human being a little better helps illuminate something about all of us, then I think that is a perfectly reasonable place to begin.

People often assume that because I write conversationally, that I can’t write academically.

The truth is actually quite the contrary, I can do both. Academic and essay writing is where I excelled prior to 2013 and this blog.

I have written formally enough to be exempted from college-level academic writing courses in 2 separate degree programs a decade apart, and I have spent years writing professionally in other contexts. 

So when it comes to my writing call it what you will but choosing a more conversational voice is an intentional choice.

In many ways, for me specifically, I think it is actually the harder discipline.

It is one thing to explain a complex idea to a group of specialists already fluent in the language of a subject. It is quite another to express complex ideas in a way that almost anyone can follow without stripping away their richness.

Ironically, teaching English (ESL) has actually helped to strengthen that ability in me more than almost anything else.

I had the privilege of raising my kiddos from infancy, contributing and watching them build their understanding of the world one word at a time. It was incredible to explore through games and intentional language learning processes. 

Years later I found myself teaching adults from every corner of the globe, which required an entirely different skillset. Children don’t need ideas simplified; they need ideas built. Adult learners often need those same ideas translated into language that connects with what they already know. Every language has different rules and patterns.

Those experiences along with many others taught me that language is far more than communication.

Language actually shapes thought itself.

My interactions with LLM’s and artificial intelligence has reinforced that lesson in unexpected ways. Not because it tells me what to think, but because it has made me even more aware of the extraordinary relationship between words, meaning and interpretation. 

Change a single word and an entire paragraph can shift. 

Change a metaphor and an entirely different way of seeing the world emerges.

Perhaps that is why I find language so endlessly fascinating.

There weren’t suddenly more stars in the sky than we had anticipated when humanity invented the telescope. We simply developed the ability to perceive and quantify what had always been there.

I often wonder whether language works in much the same way.

Perhaps many of the ideas we struggle to describe already exist around us, waiting patiently until we develop the words capable of revealing them. Reality often remains exactly the same. What changes is our ability to perceive it and properly define and describe it.

That possibility excites me more than almost anything else.

There is another word that I would say also applies to my writing and has become increasingly important to me over the years: congruence.

My confidence has never come from believing I know more than everyone or anyone else or even wanting to. It doesn’t come from titles, credentials or the need to convince people that I am right. However, both are equally important to me so I actively pursue both.

So the confidence comes from knowing that I have lived in alignment with the questions that have fascinated me for as long as I can remember.

I have remained curious and questioning.

I have taken risks. Oh boy have I.

I have immersed myself in the world not only as an of observer witnessing it safely from a distance. I often think of myself as an immersed observer, someone who participates fully in life while trying to never lose the ability to step back, reflect, and ask, What does this reveal about us?

I have raised eight children. I have worked in funeral services, accompanying people through one of life’s greatest transitions. I have loss and end of life transitions in my personal life. I have travelled across dozens of countries, not to collect destinations but to better understand humanity through witnessing its cultures, histories and people. I have spent over 4000 thousand hours in one-to-one conversations alone through my ESL sessions with individuals from every imaginable background, from a few beginners learning English to professors, researchers, executives, engineers, artists, entrepreneurs and retirees.

Those experiences may be credentials. It’s definitely a broader than usual perspective or collective.

But they are most certainly are observations.

However, I still remain the one human being whose inner experience I can observe continuously throughout an entire lifetime. In many ways, I am my own longest-running field study, not because I believe I am uniquely important, but because I am the only consciousness I will ever truly know from the inside. And I am aware of the areas that I choose to explore and follow.

That congruence is what gives me confidence.

Not because it makes me right.

But because when I write, my words are not borrowed.

They are researched and they are lived.

People sometimes ask whether I want to persuade them.

Not really.

Honestly, agreement has never been my objective.

Neither has fame, not even legacy or becoming an authority.

If those things arrive, I will accept them with absolute gratitude, but they have never been the driving force behind why I write.

Curiosity has.

My greatest hope is not that someone finishes one of my pieces of writing necessarily agreeing with me.

It is that they might close the laptop, and continue thinking, or notice something they had never noticed before, or begin asking questions they hadn’t thought to ask prior.

Maybe they’ll read about a subject they had never considered or perhaps they’ll look differently at another human being. Possibly they’ll become just a little more curious than they were prior.

If that happens, then for me, the writing has already done exactly what I was intending it to do.

When I first started blogging more than a decade ago, I wrote that I wanted readers to discover who I was through my writing rather than through a standard generic “About Me” page.

Looking back now, I realise something has quietly changed along the way.

I no longer hope readers discover me. I hope they discover themselves.

Because I believe that writing isn’t ultimately about transferring information.

It is about awakening attention. Not gaining attention.

If my words encourage someone to experience this extraordinary planet, to become more curious about our species, to think more deeply, or simply to remain open to wonder, then I have that is contributing to something worthwhile.

At the end of my life, if I am asked what I did with the precious time I was given as a human on earth, I hope my answer is a simple one.

I lived fully.

I paid attention.

I loved deeply.

I explored as much of this remarkable planet and its people as I possibly could.

And I NEVER stopped asking questions.

A Familiar Corner of the Internet

It’s strange returning to a place that once felt so familiar.

It’s been five years since I sat down in this corner of the internet. Five years since I thought I was ready to start sharing again but little did I know it was the beginning of an incredible lived in, uprooted epic world cultural travel immersion.

I fondly think back to the time when I shared my thoughts simply because they wanted to be written. Way back in 2013 when this blog began, when I felt the call and the pull to write.

Life, however, has a way of taking us exactly where we need to go. Especially if we really lean into it.

Five Years, 45 Countries, and the Unknown

Since I last wrote here was with some updates, Leon and I packed up our lives, sold almost everything we owned, and stepped into the unknown. We’ve spent the last five years slow-travelling the world across 45 countries as digital nomads, living across countries, cultures, and continents. I also have spent time teaching ESL and tutoring/mentoring. Talking to over 2000 people across multiple countries in over 5,000 1 on 1 conversations.

I didn’t just collect passport stamps, I collected conversations, perspectives, contradictions, grief, joy, history, silence, and stories. I have had epic 5 star excursions and experiences and more fondly I have had incredibly diverse conversations and experiences that I never, ever could have imagined.

My journey crossed the lands of epic and fallen empires, culturally diverse people and ancient geography.

But above all my journey was about humanity.

The Search for What Makes Us Human

The more people I met, the more fascinated I became with what makes us who we are.

Why we believe what we believe.

Why societies evolve the way they do.

Why history repeats itself.

Why some people seem willing to surrender their thinking willingly while others spend their lives questioning everything. The further I travelled across the world, the deeper I travelled into the human mind.

Looking Back at 2013

Looking back now, I smile at the woman who started this blog in 2013. Check out my first post or my about me page to read my original intentions for this blog.

She simply wanted the courage to call herself a writer. She was hungry. She felt the faint calling.

She had no idea where those words would eventually lead. Honestly sometimes I still can’t believe it myself.

Where the Words Are Going

Today, my writing has expanded and evolved into something much broader than I ever really imagined but I still centre those same issues and topics that I touched on here as well.

Philosophy. Human behaviour. Relationships.

Consciousness. Anthropology. Poetry. Science.

Space. Creativity. Identity. Death. Meaning.

A focus on the stories we tell ourselves. And more now than ever the stories our current society tells us.

And perhaps the question I find myself returning to more than any other…

How do we remain deeply human in a world increasingly shaped by digital minds?

That question has been quietly following me for years.

Now I’m finally ready to write it.

This next chapter feels different.

Bigger. Scarier. More honest.

For the first time in my life, I feel like it is time to fully step into the work I believe I’ve been building toward for decades.

And that brings me to something I’m incredibly excited and admittedly a little terrified to share.

This August, I’m heading to London to begin pitching my books to publishers.

Just writing that sentence feels surreal.  

The ideas that have lived inside notebooks, phone notes, journals, and countless late-night conversations are becoming real.

They’re becoming manuscripts. Bodies of work. Books I hope will eventually find their way into other people’s hands and perhaps make them pause, question, feel, or simply see the world from a slightly broader perspective.

So, I’m coming home to this space because this is where so much of my writing journey began. I said I wanted to be a published writer. Let’s see if I can do so with these 3 books I have coming up.

Over the coming months, I’ll be sharing essays, philosophical rabbit holes, observations from around the world, theories I’m exploring, pieces of poetry, unfinished thoughts, and the very real behind-the-scenes experience of preparing these books and taking them to London, England.

Some posts may challenge you. Some may comfort you. Some may simply leave you thinking long after you’ve closed the page.

If you’ve been here since the beginning… thank you.

If you’re just discovering me now… welcome.

I’m genuinely glad you’re here.

Let’s see where this journey takes us this time.

Find my other blog and writing here: https://www.closerlives.com/about-us/jennifer-david

Jennifer

It’s on a need to know basis

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Photo of me at Balat Cafe in Fenner district of Istanbul, Turkey October 2021

A POEM

I spent a lot of my life trying to explain my actions

However everything magnetizes to me like I’m an attraction 

Everything’s always been quite extreme

Carrying, varying bags so full they burst at the seems

Once I’ve learned it I grow stagnant…. 

I want it all won’t settle for a fragment 

I’m such an extrovert 

I want to share every new thing I learn with every person I meet….

Yet I’m also such an introvert I need to retreat 

I’ve always had an appetite for life 

and I need to eat

My feet need to meet with the beat of the street 

You cannot learn to the level I seek by remaining still and accepting meek

allowing time to slip by…

second by second

week by week…

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Re: Write

woman with dark hair sitting on old wood desk in John Ryland Library with shelves with a poem on the image
Photo of me in John Rylands Library in Manchester, England 2019

I feel things. 

Deeply.

I always have. 

Maybe it’s because I’m a scorpio. 

Maybe it’s just me. 

Maybe it is part of my destiny?

I have also had to learn to release things.

I have had to learn to release my grip on life and people.

Release things that no longer serve me and my higher good. 

I don’t always know what that is but I know my soul does.

Sometimes the release is a good cry.

Sometimes it’s making wild love. (Also scorpio in me)

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Speak of the Things you Seek

Palace of Versailles back garden area woman laying on stone fence infront of the lake and gardens area wearing an orange shirt with light blue short pants with dark hair in a bun looking out to the garden with text on image saying speak of the things you seek
Photo of me in the Palace of Versailles gardens in June 2019

There is much power in verbally expressing your hopes, dreams, desires and goals. 

When we are young we naturally talk about our hopes for our lives – I want to be a pilot…. I will be this…. I will do that is part of daily conversations but somewhere down the life path we seem to stop stating these dreams and fantasies. Maybe it’s because we feel that we need to ‘grow up’ and face the facts and live in the ‘real world’…. how many times have we heard these kinds of statements through out our lives?  And truthfully have you bought into that?

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Create the mess

Couple man and woman holding a slab with with pottery that they made with clay on their hands showing what they created with 3 bowls in a rustic pottery class room both smiling with the text backwards dress hot mess hell yes and I created none the less on the image
Leon and I in Merida, Mexico taking our first pottery class through Airbnb Experiences in June 2021

I woke up one morning in June with an inner knowing I had to take a pottery class. To fully embrace and to help me to understand the lessons of the Creator and the creation. This is something I’ve been researching for a book and program I’m putting together.

When you sit at the potters wheel you need to take great care.  You need to give much attention to detail. Just the right amount of water. Keep the wheel spinning at just the right pace. Taking care with the pressure as just the slightest move can make the pot unbalanced and have it tumble over. 

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Make big moves

Arundel Castle rose garden woman with dark hair in pony tail posed leaning on a sundial surrounded by big beautiful fascia coloured roses with the castle in full view behind
Striking a pose at the sun dial at Arundel Castle in the Rose Garden May 2019

I spent almost a month in England, twice, with Leon prior to his big move to Canada in October 2019, I’m keen to return to the castles, churches, history and my families home land.  I’m first generation born Canadian.

I’ve always been obsessed with castles and architecture ….Arundel Castle (in the first photo) is one of my all time favourites… the rose garden smelled like heavenly bliss. 🌸🌸

I’ve been to London, Manchester, Stone Henge, York and the Yorkshire Dales (we took a ride on the old steam train 🚂), visited Whitby the birth place and inspiration behind Bram Stokers Dracula and Bath.

Stone Henge on a cloudy day with green grass and upper torso of woman with dark hair in ponytail with a pink coat posed standing in front of the Stone Henge
Stonehenge, England September 2019

The last time we were in England we were packing things up, getting affairs settled, settling tenants, saying good bye to family etc. on top of country hopping through Europe to squeeze in a last road trip while Leon had his car.

I remember at the time all of the feelings I had of trepidation and pressure with the move. THIS was a BIG move. If we had difficulties with our relationship etc there was no where for Leon to go if I needed to establish boundaries for me and the kiddos. (blending a family is hard even under the most convenient circumstances) Leon was giving up everything (yet also gaining everything 🥰).

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Write of the things you seek

Woman with dark hair in bun wearing an orange shirt standing facing the back of the Palace of Versailles with the blue sky showing in the top with text saying write the things you seek
Photo of me taken at back of the Palace of Versailles, France in June 2019

Not only do I believe that writing is one of the best forms of self therapy and self help/care there is but I ALSO believe the same to be true in the manifestation of goals and desires to bring forth your ideal vision for your life.

I encourage you to write it down. Write it all down! Your hopes, dreams, fantasies things that seem to be too big to be true. From the places you’d like to visit, to your ideal partner or career…what the best of a best friend or mate would be for you.

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It’s not always so easy to forget

How am I so forgetful? Yet I always seen to remember you.  The one thing I want to forget.  Woman with dark hair wearing a black lace shirt with a smirk on her face
A piece I wrote back in 2019 (posted on my instagram)

I never ever thought there would come a time that I would get over my ex let alone find someone who could be as kind, romantic, playful and gentle.  I felt like no one could ever ‘fill his shoes’ the bar had been set pretty high… and it wouldn’t even be fair to anyone to attempt a relationship.  The few times I tried I ended things quickly just feeling discouraged.  I considered myself lucky to had even had the opportunity to have a love like I had with my ex. 

I felt these things and this way because I wasn’t yet fully healed.

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Want to see a major shift in your life? Try replacing “I’m sorry” with “Thank you”.

Want to see a major shift in your life? Try replacing "I'm sorry" with "Thank you" woman kneeling and thinking in Istanbul, Turkey Balat district
Photo taken in November 2021 in the Balat/Fener district of Istanbul, Turkey

I don’t know if it’s an over all Canadian thing….being from the land of bumping into car doors and apologizing… lol but some how I became that “I’m sorry” person.  It came as a surprise to me as most of my younger life you’d be hard pressed to hear me apologize for anything.  But eventually I chose to learn about both accountability and forgiveness.  But here’s the thing, sometimes we can end up swaying too far and become over accountable. 

But too much apologizing also leads to a negative mindset of self…a self blame mentality…and even a hyper focus on self. 

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